February 2016A new age for IIT videos is here! Dear Friend, I was in silent retreat for a week, and was meditating on how to help you with your sp


February 2016

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Dear Friend,

I was in silent retreat for a week, and was meditating on how to help you with your spiritual transformation. My wonderful assistant Melany Hallam and I are continually thinking of tools that will support you. We've come up with a brand new, inexpensive and easier way of speaking with you. Tadah! My videos are now available online at Amazon Video On-Demand!

In February, I'll be speaking in four places in Hawaii, and I'll also be offering workshops in Europe in May and June.

I'm also very grateful that one of our IIT graduates, Verena Deeken, has written an article on the topic that many of us deal with, Food and Transformation.


My videos are now available to rent or buy through Amazon's Video On-Demand service. How convenient is that? Order and view all of our videos immediately from anywhere, including your phone, tablet, Smart TV and from the Web.

It's so easy! Link here to view my videos on Amazon.

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We know that online video streaming or downloading isn't for everyone, so we have reduced all of our DVD prices to $14.95. Purchase your very own copy of these inspiring and transformative videos to assist you on your journey. DVDs include:

Elementals and Nature Spirits
Spiritual Transformation: Journey of Co-Creation
and our newest DVD, Hybrids: So you think you are human

For more information on our DVDs, link here.

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Hybrids: So you think you are human

"... very persuasive thesis and evidence to support her theories ... prepare to expand the mind."
- Michael J. Roads, Author, Through the Eyes of Love

In my new DVD, I focus on 22 different human-hybrids (elementals, angels, dolphins, giants, dragons, centaurs, pan and many others), and offer convincing evidence of their existence. I discuss these topics and more:

What is a Hybrid?
How do we know that Hybrids exist?
What type of Elemental Hybrid am I?
Or, What type of Human Cousin Hybrid am I?
Or, What type of Star Being Hybrid am I?
Hybrid Gifts

$14.95. DVD running time 45 minutes. Order your DVD today direct from Createspace here:


Or, for Amazon Video On-Demand, click here.

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Feb. 10, 2016 - TALK: HYBRIDS: SO YOU THINK YOU ARE HUMAN Kauai, Dolphin Touch Wellness Center, info(at)dolphintouch.org (808) 822-4414 Time: 7:30-9:30 Fee: $20

Feb. 11, 2016 - EXCURSION TO MEET ELEMENTALS OF KAUAI I will be leading an enchanted journey to the Ho’opi ‘i Falls.
* Wander through a beautiful magical rainforest
* Meet the menehune and mo‘okane who live there
* Journey to 2 waterfalls to meet the deva who lives there
* Meet an elemental who wishes to partner with you
* Option: Bring bathing suit for swim in sacred ponds
For more information: info(at)dolphintouch.org at the Dolphin Touch Wellness Center, (808) 822-4414. Time: 1:30-4:30 p.m Fee: $75

Feb. 14, 2016 - TALK: THE MENEHUNE OF HAWAI’I: GUARDIANS OF THE EARTH, New Thought Center of Hawa’í, 81-6587 Mamalahoa Hwy., Kealakekua, Hawa’í , spiritof(at)newthoughtcenterofhawaii.com, (808)323-2232, Time: 10-11:30 a.m.


For a schedule of my May/June workshops in Europe, click here.

Looking forward to seeing you soon!


By Verena Deeken

Our relationship with food can be the doorway into our inner world. It allows us to get a deeper understanding of what emotions we are trying to avoid, what memories are haunting us or what stories we are telling ourselves over and over again that keep us from living our life to the fullest. And it is a deeply spiritual practice if we are willing to accept that how we eat tells us everything that we believe about ourselves and about life.

For as long as I can remember I’ve been struggling with my weight. I was never happy with it and I never identified with how I looked. As a teenager I was actually quite thin but over the decades and with increasing age this has changed and the weight has steadily gone up. The underlying feelings, however, have remained pretty much the same over time. They go something along the line of: if only I were thin (whatever I believe is thin) and had a lithe and well-defined body I would be much happier, live a more fulfilled and meaningful life and be more loveable and loved. In recent years I’ve added: and, of course, I would also be much more spiritually advanced.

Misery and obsession

I kept my trials and tribulations with weight and body image pretty much to myself. I couldn’t admit to anyone, not even myself, how utterly miserable I felt about this, how often I beat myself up and that I was obsessed. There was not a single day, probably not even a single waking hour when I wouldn’t think of it and either make pledges to never binge, eat sweets or potato chips again and exercise for the rest of my life or I would spend my time fretting over how my body looks in the mirror and how heavy I feel. I would dream of what a great life I would have if that magic number on my scale finally appeared only to find myself confronted with a reality where every trip to the fashion store would be a nightmare, because I could never find anything my size.

But most of all I felt completely isolated and very much embarrassed when I went on meditation retreats, attended workshops or met other people who are on this spiritual path with me. It seemed to me that I was the only person struggling with these mundane issues when everyone else, so I believed, was focusing on what truly matters: awareness, presence and enlightenment.

Turn around

Three years ago, I had the good fortune to attend a five-day silent meditation retreat with the Dharma teacher Christopher Titmus. During inquiry time in a daring act of bravado I raised my hand to inquire about eating, food and weight. I got great insights but what really blew my mind was the feedback I got from others. Many people came up to me afterwards to tell me how grateful they were for my inquiry and how brave I was to address this topic and how helpful they found it.

Around this time a friend gave me a book called Women, Food and God: An Unexpected Path To Almost Everything, by Geneen Roth. It opened up a whole new world for me.

If only ...

Up to that point I firmly believed that, if only I could muster enough willpower and discipline to finally keep my New Year’s resolutions on dieting and exercising everything would be fine. I was sure I only had to stick to some plan to reduce food intake by counting calories or points and stepping up exercise with power yoga, calisthenics or Pilates, then I’d succeed. But, at some point, I’d eventually fall off the wagon and once again I’d be deeply disappointed in myself and even more convinced that I was hopeless and would never get it right.

However, after reading Geneen’s book I realized that what I had perceived as my greatest obstacle to growing and evolving as a soul-infused personality: my struggle with food and weight proved to be exactly the doorway to inner freedom and peace I had so desperately been looking for.

"Am I really hungry?"

In order to step through that doorway we need to ask two simple questions: “Am I really hungry?” and if not then “Why I am eating?” If we eat when we are not hungry food is an escape route that we take in order to not be where we are or to feel what we don’t want to feel. We need to be present in our body to know whether we are physically hungry or not. And if we reach for food when we are not hungry this is a sign that something is not okay. We must be willing to look at what is going on and to find out what is really going on We must be willing to embark on this journey.

Over the past three years my weight hasn’t gone up, but neither has it gone down. What has completely changed, however, is my obsession with food and weight. It has ceased to exist. The scale in my bathroom no longer has the power to turn this into a good or a bad day, depending on what figure shows up. The size of my trousers no longer defines if I am worthy or not. A glimpse in the mirror or seeing a photo of myself no longer has the power to send me on a downward spiral of self-loathing and despair.

Embrace the now!

I would be dishonest if I were to say I fully accept the weight I am now. I still hope that someday it will just drop away or the spiritual journey will take me past the point where it matters. But perhaps this is, as Tanis Helliwell says, the next step we need to take and which I feel is a good message for each of us. That is, to fully embrace and love where we are now and be content with what is, even if this never alters. As I continue to do this I discover more inner peace.


Verena Deeken has a Masters in International Economics and works in a multinational corporation as an enterprise architect. As an IIT graduate she has been studying with Tanis for more than ten years, bridging the gap between corporate work and the spiritual path and trying to bring the two together in her personal as well as her professional life. Her mission is to “create a synthesis bringing forth the qualities both have in a unique way.” verena.deeken(at)gmx.net


Love always,

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Tanis Helliwell
International Institute for Transformation

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